my studying has been non-progressive. how how how how how?? tomorrow's my first paper for prelims and i'm not even half done with the subject! screw it la. am pretty pissed with everything.
Dance is starting to get stressful as it is only a week left to the Competition and there's just too much things to do.

Took a break last night from studying. And i'm wondering how in the world am i going to pass my econs paper. But Thank GOD that this is not my real exams or I'd be ROTTING DEAD MEAT.
Cant concentrate, bad bad bad.

And I'm gonna head straight home after dance practice to mug. Decided not to go for Allegra's class for the beginners. Or else i would be heading straight to bed after dance and i cant afford that.

Raining heavily now. stuck at home. And i have half the mind to start mugging again.

OK. i have decided not to go for dance and to stay home and study.


-go Cheryl! you can do it!-



left her thoughts ♥ 2:40:00 PM

Studying has been rather unproductive for me. I spend my days dancing and dancing and dancing.
There's an upcoming dance competition, Dance Works 2009. Its on the 7th March (Saturday) at Plaza Sing. As for the timing wise. i think its around 2pm. Well, this explains me dancing every day. It got a lil bad that i was bed-ridden one day. It was the day after the filming for Police and Thief. And i'm not sure if i'm going to watch myself on TV, think i'd look ridiculously stupid dancing.

Been trying my best to study whenever i can( but definitely not now) i dont seem to feel stress. and this is not good! As the chinese saying goes ," last minute hug buddah's leg" ahahha... my direct translation from the chinese saying. i would usually kiss and hug and clean buddah's leg. I know it wont work for me this time round. so i'm practically on my own.

And i've been having this strange feeling recently, its bugging me to give everything up. Dance, Relationship, studies. I dont know why, but i just dont feel like myself lately. And yes.. i know.. i think its PMS.And it didnt help that i had that dream 2 days ago that made me so emo. Sometimes, its not that we dont want to let go of the past. Its the memories of the past that we have that kills us and even though we're supposed to hold on to the sweet memories and move on. Holding on to those memories WONT allow you to move on because you'll be living in the memories. And your mind would want to travel back to the past. So tell me HOW on earth can you move on? Beats me. Dont get me wrong. I'm not trying to compare relationships here . Just saying that there are some memories that you just cant hold on to because it breaks you but you cant forget them because they are memories. The only way i can think of, that makes you erase the memories is to get involved in an accident and you suffering from head concussion. That will definitely wipe ALL your memories away. Its just like buying a new thumb drive.
Sighs, how i wished i have a boyfriend who would sweep me off my feet and makes me fall in love over and over and over again. Someone who gives me new excitement. well... its just a wish. Dont we all have wishes too? AGAIN! Dont get me wrong, i love my boyfriend. But everyone's different. We dont get to date our dream guy/girl. Then again, even if you do, you might not be happy too because you just dont feel for him as much as you thought you would.
So yea, i'm just blogging my thoughts, FYI, i tend to think ALOT. I'm not putting my boyfriend down or what-so-ever. So dont get the wrong idea.

My mood at this current is PERFECTLY NORMAL... AS normal as this.!


and i realised i'm image conscious. err.. i dont quite like my 2 front teeth. makes me look like a rabbit. honestly, i hate it.
But i think its retarded to spend a thousand bucks or two just to put braces for me 2 front teeth right?
oh well... i'm still trying to deal with it.


And after spending 15 mins on blogging, i realised i dont know where this entry is leading to. There's no conclusion for this. well.. This is my Random Thinking. =)

oh and before i forget. Left 4 dead is AWESOMEEEEEEE !! i'm addicted to it!! woohoo!!
=)



And here is the details for my dance competition.
Do come down and support SIM-Dreamwerkz okie?

DANCE WORKS'09
7TH MARCH 2009 (SATURDAY)
PLAZA SINGAPURA
2PM-5PM.



left her thoughts ♥ 11:05:00 AM

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY MY BABY!!!

Valentine's Day is finally here!! well, its not the most special day of my life. But i'm still excited over it because for the 1st time in my life, i'm gonna make valentine's day present with my lovely valentine! =)


Well, half of my day would be spent with Ryan.Gonna have dance from 11.30 to 4pm.
But its ok. As long as i can see my cuppycake, i'm happy! =)





blur but beautiful nevertheless..



we'll walk down this path together baby..



=)



i love this picture..


silly boy, you make me laugh. =)









'and you make me smile, even if its just for awhile..
i love you my silly boy




left her thoughts ♥ 12:11:00 AM

Came across my latin dance ranking for Jive..
and boy i missed it big time...
i want this dance. i wanna dance. Rumba.. Jive!! Sighs, if only Yang wasnt like that, we'd still be dancing and we'll make history.. Miss dancing with him.. If only we could work together again.
I really really want to dance, Latin dance in particular. The grace, the passion and the fire!!! I want to fill the dance floor with lots of passion and love.

Can i just dance and not study??
well.. just a thought....







left her thoughts ♥ 1:54:00 PM

I am getting irritated with my laptop. 4 years old, its dead and gone! keeps hanging at the critical moments, just as i'm transferring my files. And my files disappeared after the lappy un-hanged itself. The IT show is coming soon. Its time to change a new laptop. It'd be my new baby!!! woohoo!! i just need a small handy laptop for me to surf, msn and listen to songs. I am a total NOOB when it comes to artsy programs. Am not an IT savy person so i'll just settle for a simple laptop. =)

I want to dance right now!!!


and i'm in the mood for sentimental love songs... =)




'hold me in your arms tonight and rock me till i'm sound asleep..



left her thoughts ♥ 11:19:00 PM

I am pretty much satisfied with myself today. Though i travelled ALL the way to Woodlands library to study and spent 3 hours doing one chapter. I am still happy because i knew i studied that chapter pretty much in detail.

In the mids of my studying, I received a phonecall from my tuition agency asking me if i have reached my tuition kid's house. And i realised that i was supposed to have my 1st lesson today.Luckily i managed to push the tuition to tomorrow. So i'll be tutoring 2 kids and dance in the evening. I am looking forward to dance! wooo!! love it to the maxxxx!!
Ryan's choreo is damn DOPE! =) am loving it!

and i miss my boy.....
lovely lovely boy. i think he's rushing to finish his project so that he can come over my house on Valentine's Day to make our present!! am really looking forward to Saturday!!!-prays for Saturday to come quick!- yayyyyy..


ITS Wednesday and I'm in LOVE!!!



and i love this picture of us too!!



left her thoughts ♥ 1:26:00 AM

NRA held the Post Production Party over the weekends at The Pavillion . The theme for the party was RETRO BABBY!!! And for the first time in my life, i actually PERMED my HAIR!!! it was BEAUTIFUL!!! loved the hair-do even though it only lasted half the night.Thanks to my beloved Jasmine who painstakingly stood there for 1 hour just to curl my hair. Thank you so much my dear!!! And now i have the urge to perm my hair for real!!

Had quite abit of fun that night. Some of the guys were dressed in super retro clothes and it was pretty hilarious, with the afro hair and all.. honestly, i really love dance people because they are so damn spontaneous about everything. Its a whole load of fun with them. If one acts stupid, everyone will act stupid together. Love this spirit! It definitely brightens your all-so-dull days. Hanging out with them just brings you lots of laughter all day long.

Went to IKEA with sweetie after class to shop for our D-I-Y Valentine's Day present. After 13847132 years, we finally ate Swedish Meatballs and chicken wings!! It was a scrumptious meal, a great treat for me after doing 2 1/2 hours of the head spinning Maths. I swear i hate mathematics!! It makes me go crazy!! Alright, back to where i was, we went Queensway Shopping Centre to shop a little. Sweetie bought a bag for training and nothing caught my eye really. Which was a blessing in disguise or else I'd be spending MORE money buying MORE shoes.. =)

I am looking forward to our Valantine's Day/3rd Monthsary!!! yayayayay!!!


and cheryl's gone for 10 months and i miss her like crazyyyyyyyyyy...



Anyway, some of the pictures i took over the weekends.




Me and Joel the retro uncle



Dreamwerks!!! LOVE YOU GUYS!



Me and JJ








Ok, i was bored, and this is hellua "ACT CUTE AH LIAN"



My nicely permed hair



at the end of the night, my curls were gone.. =(



left her thoughts ♥ 12:52:00 AM

This naughty girl didnt wake up for her morning class again! but its alright.I had a wonderful time today. Sweetie brought me to his friend's 21st birthday celebration at the Arts house.
I must say, he has wonderful friends. =)

And i realised, its him being blur at times that makes me smile.He's the most decent guy i've ever met. He treats me like a gem and i feel loved.. I really appreciate every little thing he has done for me. I know that i did complain to my friends at the beginning. But everything is falling into place right now. I'm happy seeing him,even if its for a short while...

With this being said,it brings me to a conclusion....that unknowingly, i'm falling deeper in love with him.. and i feel this sense of happiness coming back to me. This wave of sweetness is sweeping through my body. Indulging and addictive. and i dont wanna lose him.never. =)
I am willing to stand by him. Through thick and thin, and make this relationship last for as long as it takes.


Because i love him, really do.

just thinking bout it makes me feel fuzzy all over. =)










oh crap, this is a teary post.. Verena's telling me about Sk and i feel soooooo happy for her that she has a wonderful boyfriend... WE ARE THE LUCKIEST GIRLS EVER!!!!!!!!

I am so fortunate! i really am.. =)



left her thoughts ♥ 12:33:00 AM

woohooo!!! I BOUGHT NEW SHOES!!! ...
damnn! i just spent money again!! alright! i know shouldnt be justifying the money spent there...
but but but.... -gives the sad eyes- it was so nice.... i really couldnt help it..
i'm a bloody sucker for perfumes and shoes.. dance shoes especially..
ahhh!!! okok. I promise NOT to buy anymore dance shoes. 5 pairs is ENOUGH!
i need someone to spank me now! like now!! ken darling!! heee~~~ i do feel guilty spending so much money on these shoes. considering i just bought my limited edition Nike high cut dunks just last month.... ahhhh!!!!!!! i deserved to be chained up!!

its alight.. just take a look at the shoe... nice right?? the inside of the shoe is velvety. super duper comfy!










anyway, ken gave me the link to my favourite jap singer, Atari. His voice is as soothing as the sound of flowing water, its like my personal lullaby. Hearing his voice puts me to sleep,NOT in a bad way but it eases my mind instantly.. He's a very good singer indeed. =) just watch and you'll know what i mean. i know not everyone will be able to appreciate him, one man's meat is another man's poison. So, to those who can appreciate it, here is the video.




left her thoughts ♥ 12:47:00 AM

What do you do when you have nothing else to do other then studying? -Blog.
i was bored out of my skin and decided to flip through my things. And I found poems that i've written a long long time ago, back when i was in my Secondary school days. And i'm amazed at the number of poems i wrote. Actually, i realised most of them were poems i wrote when i got dumped. how silly. But nevertheless, i feel like posting them up. =)

Here i go.......

This was written in either 2002 or 2003

Forget..

Ink Spreading across the page,
we spoke once again of embracing each other in a moment of vanilla and nightfall.

The days are alike,
sorrow fills our hearts.
tears forming in my eyes,
a cloud falling upon us.

We were learning to love,
open up,take matters into our own hands.
The hope held us tight.
For 1 year my heart soared.
Its wings stretching and spreading.

But these moments are finished,
as we open the door,
tangled with emotions,
we whispered....
"Goodbye"

-by cheryl

Lost..

Darkness envelopes her..
as she plunges into total darkness..
she is blinded by the cruel world..
a world full of pain and sufferings..

silently cursing the world so unkind..
wishing she could escape into the other worlds..
but there isn't any place to run away..

she sits and stares.
feeling lost and disorientated..
hot tears stream down her cheeks..
she screams...
hoping that would it take away her pain..
but she still feels the same...

and nothing would change....
it never will...

-by cheryl


Missing you

the days have passed...
but none without you in my heart..
i've said it once,
and said it twice..
but once again i'll say it tonight..
i miss you now,
and i'll miss you always..
till the day,
i've found u my love,
and fall into my arms,
once again...

-by cheryl


OH! and this poem is my ALL TIME FAVOURITE...

You and Me

Dawning upon my memories,
all that's left of you and me.
We had so much to share,
but now i'm living in despair.
As you gloat over our past,
those bitter-sweet memories we had,
will always be close to my heart.

A tragic ending to our relationship.
is now a living nightmare to me.
I have to go on,
without you here with me.

Many a times,
you whispered into my ears,
of words i wanted to hear.
It sent my heart skipping,
never did it stopped beating.
This was how much you meant to me.

But its all over now.
The pain in my heart,
Is slowly subsiding.

As days pass,
i'll grow stronger,
like never before.
And i'll be on my own two feet again.
That was you,
And this is me.

-by Cheryl


ok i'm pretty tired typing all the poems out.Thats all for now..
i cant believe i wrote that when i was 15 years old. talk about love huh?
and yea, i was heart broken over and over again till i'm sick and tired of this love game.
hahha... how much we believed in love when we were young.
Now that we've all grown up. We'll ask, "What is love?". And we wont know the answer..







left her thoughts ♥ 10:22:00 PM

Money makes the world go crazy!

alright! time for some updates.

"All adult Singaporeans will get GST Credits of up to $1,000 to help them with the impact of the GST increase. Those who earn less or live in smaller homes will get more GST Credits. Nearly three-quarters of adult Singaporeans will get $800 each. NSFs and NSmen will also get a one-off $100 of GST Credits to recognise their contributions to national security."

And as part of the Financial Year 2009, the GST Credits and Senior Citizens' Bonus for 2009 will be doubled!! YAYNESS!!! thats uber good news!! cheers people! we'll get back the money we've given to the government!!

FYI, the 1st GST offset package FIRST payout is on the 1 March 2009. So do check your bank accounts on that day! woohoo!! money money money! Well, if you have signed up for your GST Credits in 2007 and wish to donate your 2009 GST Credits, you may do so from 15 February to 23 June 2009 at the official website.. i think its www.gstoffset.gov.sg.
To all the kind souls out there, please take note of the dates.

A big thank you to Mr Tharman Shanmugaratnam, our Minister for Finance who announced the Resilience Package totaling $20.5 billion this year. This is to help us Singaporeans see though this period of financial difficulty and Singapore to emerge with strength when the global economy recovers.

This is good news isnt it? NSF.. 100 bucks more! dang i wished i were an NSF. Then again , on second thoughts, having to go through 2 years of shit.. nah, i think i'll pass.. haha



left her thoughts ♥ 3:26:00 PM

I am suffering from extreme compulsive shopping behavior. Horrible! It has only been less then a week after chinese new year and my ang bao money's almost gone!!! KUDOS cheryl! you have just wasted money yet again...
anyway. Am debating whether i should quit my job at the gym because i have another job offer that pays me at least 2 times more then the gym does, minus the long travelling time. Think i'll earn more money with this other job.

Had a double lunch date yest with my darling Cheryl and Wenyang. Brought them to "Sakuraya Fish Mart". 4 years of patronizing that place and it never fails to put a smile on my face. The salmon sashimi there THE BEST! You will moan with pure sweet pleasure when u take your first bite. YES! i mean MOAN. The sashimi is soo darn fresh and sweet that it is ORGASMIC!!And i mean it. Darling Cheryl loves it to the CORE! well, the picture speaks for itself. Screw Sake Sushi,Edo Sushi and sakura. This beats every single one of the express sushi bar with the salmon red plates that cost you 6 bucks and its damn unfresh. I bet you a million bucks that when you have your first bite of salmon sashimi at "Sakuraya Fish Mart" , you'll NOT want to eat any another salmon sashimi at sake sushi and the other sushi places. it is THAT GOOD!.

and after all the gorging of salmon sashimi, me and cheryl were contented. =)

I think i'm learning how to appreciate everything and to embrace the flaws of others. i must learn to be patient.. i must i must...

I bet you're salivating now.. =p



me and lovely.




cheryl and wen yang



Cheryl had her farewell dinner over at her place last saturday. I couldnt help but feel sad. Dont want her to go overseas to study. i will miss her badly. =( . she's leaving on sunday.. SO SOON!!!! =(

I will miss you like crazy!!!



we'll miss you,cheryl


our silly little moments. =)



left her thoughts ♥ 11:11:00 AM

Human beings are complicated by nature and I wouldn't deny that.
You wouldn't believe my profession. But I have a strong passion for what I do.
I'm not a great dancer but dancing its one of my only burning passion in life that keeps me going. =)

A petite girl who loves to socialise and have tons of fun!
I'm patient but don't try to test the limits.
Well,as long as you are not a weirdo,you're most welcomed to join my social circle.
*cheerios!!